This morning I woke up feeling pretty great. It’s the day before Thanksgiving, which is my all-time favorite holiday of all time. None of this pretentious marketing and monetization (excluding Black Friday and how it’s creeping into Thanksgiving) that comes with major holidays. Just family, food, and relaxation.
I had to go to one of the K-3 schools this morning to help a teacher with a projector, and as part of the process I had to climb onto a chair and reach my hands above my head to grab the projector cables and pull it down. In the process, my shirt rode up a bit and you could see my stomach and sides (which are nothing to be thrilled about, but still far better than I used to be at 4XL and now a L/XL). Soon after, I heard lots of kids giggling, I turned around to get off the chair and saw a few of them pointing. A few others were whispering things like “gross” and “disgusting” while pointing at me. And it hit me. They’re talking about me here.
After almost 2 years of working at losing weight and getting in shape, it doesn’t matter.
And now I just feel completely broken. Like all my work was for absolutely nothing.
I just want to disappear.
So just remember: your words and actions can destroy how someone is doing. Be mindful.